He came to mainstream prominence as a machine more human than his creators in Blade Runner , terrified us as a hitchhiker bent on his own death and the death of anyone who got in his way in The Hitcher , and unforgettably portrayed a lonely king roaming the night as a wolf and pining for the love of a hawk during the day in Ladyhawke . Rutger Hauer has dazzled audiences for years with his creepy, inspiring, and villainous portrayals of everyone from a cold-blooded terrorist in Nighthawks to a blind martial arts master in Blind Fury , but his movie career was nothing compared to his real-life adventures of riding horses, sword fighting, and leaving home at fifteen to scrub decks on a freighter and explore the world. From poverty to working with a traveling theater troupe to his breakout European performance in Turkish Delight and working with legendary directors such as Paul Verhoeven ( RoboCop and Basic Instinct ) and Ridley Scott ( Alien and Gladiator ), Hauer has collected All Those Moments here. “With his matter-of-fact, concise writing style, Hauer offers up adventures that are as entertaining as his films. This sensitive work shows another side of the dedicated, passionate actor.” - Library Journal “Cinemaphiles will adore Hauer’s autobiography….Anyone fascinated with the cinema should indeed seek the book out --it’s fun, slightly odd, and a relentlessly likable window into the cranium of a true character actor….Hauer is his own man, and All Those Moments lets that man take a bow.” - Buffalo News “Pick of the Week….[A] fascinating book.” - Rocky Mountain News He came to mainstream prominence as a machine more human than his creators in Blade Runner , terrified us as a hitchhiker bent on his own death and the death of anyone who got in his way in The Hitcher , and unforgettably portrayed a lonely king roaming the night as a wolf and pining for the love of a hawk during the day in Ladyhawke . Rutger Hauer has dazzled audiences for years with his creepy, inspiring, and villainous portrayals of everyone from a cold-blooded terrorist in Nighthawks to a blind martial arts master in Blind Fury , but his movie career was nothing compared to his real-life adventures of riding horses, sword fighting, and leaving home at fifteen to scrub decks on a freighter and explore the world. From poverty to working with a traveling theater troupe to his breakout European performance in Turkish Delight and working with legendary directors such as Paul Verhoeven ( RoboCop and Basic Instinct ) and Ridley Scott ( Alien and Gladiator ), Hauer has collected All Those Moments here. Rutger Hauer is an international film star who has made more than a hundred movies, playing everything from romantic leads to action heroes to sinister villains. He makes his home in the Netherlands but spends most of his time traveling the world on film shoots. Patrick Quinlan is the author of two novels and has been a journalist and political organizer. He lives on the coast of Maine. All Those Moments Stories of Heroes, Villains, Replicants, and Blade Runners By Rutger Hauer HarperCollins Publishers, Inc. Copyright © 2008 Rutger Hauer All right reserved. ISBN: 9780061133909 Chapter One The Day My Whole Life Changed Which comes first, the belief or the success? I don't know. But you have to believe it's all going to work out. It's weird to say, but I've hardly ever been confident, and at the same time I've never really had a hard time making decisions. So somehow I must have felt confident enough. —Rutger In early 2004, I had a problem. I was in Los Angeles, and I had a job lined up that was keeping me in town—a small-budget movie that I thought was kind of interesting. It had something to do with a virus and the Internet and the fate of mankind. It seemed like it was all set, but then one of the financial backers suddenly disappeared. The producers called my agent, saying, "Well, we're not going to do the movie." This happened on a Thursday. Now, disappointment is a way of life when you're in the movies. Sometimes you don't get the part you want, and sometimes a film you're in just dies. I've been in situations where I'm talking to my manager or agent, and I'll say, "What about that film we worked so hard on two years ago? When are we going to see that?" And it turns out the film died on the vine. A backer pulled out and the film is not going to be released. The film is made, it's sitting on a shelf somewhere, and that's where it will continue to sit until the end of time. You have to be somewhat stoic about these things if you want to keep your sanity. All the same, the early death of the virus movie came as a blow—I had been counting on it. The lease on my house in Santa Monica was up, and I had to decide if I was going to rent a house for another year. On the one hand, I couldn't be sure I'd get enough work during the year to justify it. On the other hand, although my primary home is in Ho