A personal story of the struggle for authentic inclusion in the church. From a strong voice in the dialogue about what Black lives matter means in relation to faith, a powerful lament and a hopeful message about the future. Historically, to be Episcopal/Anglican, as it was to be American, was to be white. Assimilation to whiteness has been a measure of success and acceptance, yet, assimilation requires that people of color give up something of themselves and deny parts of their heritage including religious practices that sustained their ancestors. Despite the fact that Blackness is on display on Black History Month for example, and Black/African heritage is given primacy in the liturgy, music, and preaching during that time, at other times this doesn't seem to be the case. The author argues that whiteness is embedded in every aspect of religious life, from seminary to Christian education to last rites. Is it possible to be Black and Episcopalian and not feel alien, she asks. In her words we learn that inclusivity, above all, must be authentic. “A relevant voice to those who have silently suffered and continue to suffer in a time such as this!” ―Rev. Charles D. Fowler III, African Methodist Episcopal Church “[A] call to join Jesus in his transformative mission to change the world. May it be so.” ―Greg Garrett, author of A Long, Long Way: Hollywood’s Unfinished Journey from Racism to Redemption “Gayle Fisher-Stewart guides us on a very thorough and at times very uncomfortable journey . . . [and] also offers great hope with her powerful suggestions . . .” ―Loretta Veney, author of Being My Mom’s Mom “If you’re an Episcopalian, or mainline Protestant, or a US citizen, or if you just belong to any white-dominated institution that still claims Black membership, you need to read Black and Episcopalian .” ―The Rev. Peter Jarrett-Schell, author of Seeing My Skin: A Story of Wrestling with Whiteness A challenge to the church to see that belonging is more than assimilating. GAYLE FISHER-STEWART , editor of Preaching Black Lives (Matter) serves currently as the interim rector at the historically Black, St. Luke’s Episcopal Church in Washington, DC. Prior to becoming ordained, she served with the Metropolitan Police Department in Washington DC, and later taught at the university level while consulting with local and federal government agencies. She lives in Maryland. Kelly Brown Douglas is an Episcopal priest and graduate (Master of Divinity degree, doctoral degree) of Union Theological Seminary in New York City where she is now inaugural Dean of Episcopal Divinity School at Union Seminary. She is the Canon Theologian at Washington National Cathedral. She lives in New York City.