Bulletproof goes behind the headlines to tell the before-during-and-after story of an unthinkable family tragedy . The book begins with a marriage like many other marriages, launching with love and arcing into family . Andre held my hand and made me laugh through infertility, a traumatic miscarriage, cancer, then the miraculous births of Alec and Asher. Bulletproof will follow the marriage as it hit rocky shoals and ran aground. Dark secrets began to emerge. Bulletproof tells the story, too, of a marriage unlike most any other, ending as it does in murder and death row . There is, of course, the question of why. Trying to assign rational thought is something that I, the police, my family, the prosecutor, and the jury, have done countless times . But these attempts follow a path that never connects to the death of the boys. Rational explanation can never get anywhere near the killing, because it is the most irrational, unexplainable thing a father could ever do to his children. Bulletproof will cover the trial, in which the Maricopa County Superior Court jury set an Arizona state record for shortest deliberation in a murder trial . Eleven minutes. Guilty. And, less than forty-eight hours later, the sentence. Death. I have always been against the death penalty, but my beliefs are forever turned inside out . On death row, alone in a cell twenty-three hours a day and headed for execution, is someone with whom I chose to create a family. And the person who murdered my children. Bulletproof will include stories from accident, to illness, to the myriad ways we can lose what we love most. In these sections, I will explore the infinite paths that we create to get back to ourselves and life here on earth when all we want to do is to follow our children to heaven. The book will explore how relationship between mother and child continues after the death and a personal framework that provides a direction with what to do with grief and how to live a new life, a different life when every cell in our bodies tell us that it is impossible. It is my hope that this account, based on her personal and clinical experience, will serve as an aid to offer guidance through grief what happens when we encounter an unwanted, unexpected reality. Most of all, It is my privilege to share this concept with readers...... Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. For Laurie Beth's directive framework on processing and recovering from grief, reference her book "Labyrinth of Loss".