Confessions: A Raw Chronicle of Fatherhood in the Age of Absence is a real-time account of one father’s fight to stay in his children’s lives after divorce. It’s not theory or cleaned up for an audience. It’s more than two years of handwritten journal entries that capture every moment of collapse and relentless determination to still be “Dad” when the world said otherwise. I’m Todd. I started writing Confessions in 2005 during the lowest season of my life while navigating infidelity, spiritual breakdown, financial devastation, and custody restrictions I had no idea existed. Although not intentionally meant for public reading, I’m fortunate enough to have documented it all. Two decades later, with a Ph.D. in psychology and nearly twenty years of research and advocacy behind me, I’m finally releasing what most men are shamed for discussing: the breakdown of identity, purpose, and fatherhood that happens when their family is taken from them. Confessions is not a self-help book, and it does not include advice or ‘how-to’ steps. It’s a documentary of sorts, written in real time, with 600 pages of grueling growth from the inside out. If you’re a father, or you’ve ever loved one, this is the story we're all told to forget about and that I was told to never publish. Fair warning : Confessions is a difficult read. It’s uncomfortable and even humiliating at time, especially for those who’ve never lived it. But that discomfort is the point. The reality of fatherhood after divorce is messy, unedited, and often brutal to witness…especially as it unfolds day to day. If you think reading it is hard, imagine surviving it.