My Enemy is a Coward is about struggling with the chronic disease called Multiple Sclerosis. The author, Hiekaleez, was diagnosed with MS just after graduating from college. It was as if his dreams were over! In the very beginning, he didn't know what to do. He decided to get baptized and to seek his life's purpose. My Enemy is a Coward is about his hunt for answers. It has been a life-changing journey that awakened this dreamer. The nightmare of carrying "this thing" came into his life at a time when he felt like he was on his way to making a positive impact in the world. Having Multiple Sclerosis interrupted his plans and led him to seek God and His plans for his life. This ended up being a great thing really. What the enemy meant for bad, through his Savior Jesus Christ, turned into what will ultimately guide him into being a blessing to someone else. This is just what it took for him to fulfill his purpose! His tough exterior was broken down and his true self was exposed to the world, using his "pen as my eyes and the ink as my tears." Hiekaleez was born in 1979 to his fifteen-year-old mother. In 1997, he received the North Carolina Teaching Fellows Scholarship, a full scholarship to North Carolina Central University. On December 13, 2002, he received a BA in History and on January 5, 2003, he was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. My Enemy is a Coward Fighting an Enemy That You Can't See By Hiekaleez Trafford Publishing Copyright © 2010 J. R. Hieke All right reserved. ISBN: 978-1-4269-2933-5 Contents Prologue My Enemy is a Coward: Fighting an Enemy That You Can't See.....................vii"The Best is Yet to Come"................................................................xvChapter One Something Is Happening......................................................1"Bottled Up Emotions"....................................................................11Chapter Two Let Go & Let God............................................................13"What Happened To All The Dreamers"......................................................24Chapter Three God's Not Done............................................................25"So I Wait"..............................................................................34Chapter Four Things Change; People Change...............................................35"I Lunged For You and You Pulled Away"...................................................42Chapter Five Starting Over..............................................................43"Are The Eyes Soul's Window!?"...........................................................55Chapter Six A Place to Call Home........................................................57"Invisible"..............................................................................63Chapter Seven Stuck.....................................................................65"My World of Isolation"..................................................................75Chapter Eight Rescue Me!!...............................................................77"Who Got Me!?"...........................................................................85Chapter Nine Socially Restored..........................................................87"Love, Where You At!?"...................................................................93"When it's All Said and Done"............................................................94Chapter Ten This Thing..................................................................95"The Game of Life".......................................................................99 Chapter One Something Is Happening It was my last semester in college and up to this point in my life there really hasn't been a health issue. My mom did tell me that as a baby I had a serious ear infection, but I don't remember it. There were a few head injuries over time though. One time was in the fifth grade while playing ball with some friends, I somehow managed to hit myself in the head with a baseball bat. There were stitches put near my right eye close to my temple for that. My face was swollen, but eventually it healed. Then there was this car accident back in college, which wasn't my fault. My forehead did hit the windshield and an ambulance took me to get checked at Duke Hospital in Durham, NC. The only thing that was wrong was that my forehead had been scarred from the collision. The last time that I even had a incident that put my body in harm was when this coward came from behind and hit me in the head by surprise. I guess he thought that I had something to do with an inner-town dispute between the guys from my side of town and his. Doctors at the hospital gave me stitches on my eye that time, but as usual, the wound healed. One day during my last semester in college, I was heading up some long stairs coming from my dorm on my way to my 10:00 class. My body just wouldn't work for me. My foot kept getting hung on the