Death has shaped her, broken her open, rebuilt her, and taught her how to love. This is the story of what loss can take from us, and what it can give back. After losing her brother at twenty-one, her father, her mother, friends, and the soul-animals who witnessed her life, Shannon Hurst spent decades trying to outrun grief. She buried it, silenced it, muscled through it. But grief has a way of returning, and when it comes, when it truly comes, it demands to be felt. My Love/Hate Relationship With Death is a raw, deeply personal journey through the realities of loss: the moments that shattered her, the moments that remade her, and the quiet, unexpected gifts that revealed themselves along the way. With honesty, humour, and an unfiltered heart, Shannon writes through the pain she avoided for years and discovers the lessons she never expected to find. From the mountains she climbed in her darkest seasons, to the lakes that held her tears, to the everyday miracles she nearly overlooked, this book explores how grief, love, and nature weave themselves together in ways that save us... slowly, quietly, and sometimes all at once. You’ll walk beside her through: the sudden deaths that changed everything - the losses that reshaped her family - the love that endured through heartbreak - the moments of screaming, breaking, and breaking open - the ways nature and music carried her when nothing else could - the good that sometimes rises from devastation - the truths we learn only when we’re forced to let go This is not a book about death. It’s a book about living, after, during, and even because of the hardest goodbyes. It’s for anyone who has ever lost someone they love. For anyone who has ever felt alone in their grief. For anyone who wants to understand how to carry heartbreak without letting it harden them. In these pages, Shannon shows that though grief may break us, it also cracks us open to deeper love, deeper gratitude, and a deeper understanding of what it means to be human. Raw. Tender. Honest. Healing. My Love/Hate Relationship With Death is a reminder that no matter how dark the path gets, we are never truly alone... and that sometimes, the most painful endings lead us to the most extraordinary beginnings.