Please travel with me as I take you on a journey back in time and share with you some of the physical, verbal and mental abuse I endured as a child. Be ready to experience a roller coaster ride of emotions as you read this memoir. Happiness, anger, sadness, confusion, suspense, surprise, amazement, despair, joy, hope and love. Experience the pivotal and totally unexpected bombshell that was dropped on me at age18 and see the mistake I made in my choice on how to deal with it. Get a better understanding of the war that raged and still from time-to-time rages within me and realize that while what happens to you in your early years does not have to mold or define the person you become, the scars and residuals are real and remain! Despite my best efforts to hide the pain and struggle I sometimes have within, after all these years, I finally had to face it head on! What and who helped me to survive my journey? What finally happened to force me on my path to healing? The answers may shock you!