Rose-Colored Glasses of Shayṭān and My Travels Through the Ḥāwiyah is a spiritual memoir about faith stripped of illusion and rebuilt without performance. Baptized as an infant and marked early by shame she did not understand, the author spends a lifetime searching for God across belief systems, institutions, and continents. She studies theology deeply, earns a Doctorate in Divinity, becomes a minister, and immerses herself in eighteen different religions—not out of rebellion, but out of sincerity. She wants truth that holds up under pressure. She wants a faith that does not require self-erasure. Her path eventually leads her to Islam, not as an escape or conversion story polished for approval, but as a slow, demanding return to something she cannot unsee once she recognizes it. Along the way, she navigates marriage, misuse of religious authority, cultural dislocation, profound love, devastating loss, and survival in places where faith, power, and humanity collide. Living in Oman and later Egypt during a time of political and social upheaval, she encounters Islam as it is lived—not idealized, not curated for converts, but woven into daily life with all its contradictions. These experiences refine her understanding of God, stripping away fear-based obedience and replacing it with sincerity, restraint, and trust. This book is not written to persuade or to defend Islam. It is written to witness—to name what happens when faith is separated from audience, when God is no longer filtered through institutions, and when responsibility is returned to where it belongs: between the believer and Allah alone. Written with clarity, humility, and restraint, Rose-Colored Glasses of Shayṭān and My Travels Through the Ḥāwiyah is for readers who have questioned inherited narratives, survived religious harm, or wondered whether faith can remain intact after disillusionment. It is a story about what was never required—and what always was.