Embark with the author on a personal journey that reveals the sacredness of the small things in life and what they can teach us about living spiritually fulfilling lives. Small Graces The Quiet Gifts of Everyday Life By Kent Nerburn New World Library Copyright © 1998 Kent Nerburn All rights reserved. ISBN: 978-1-57731-072-3 Contents Introduction, An Offering to a Quiet God, Awakenings, The Gift of the Dawn, The Eloquence of Silence, The Window on the Heart, Of Coffee Mugs and Monks, Passages, The Gift of Clouds, The Laughing Tree, The Gift of the Garden, The Turning of the Day, A Path in the Wood, The Gift of the Echo, A Neighbor and a Friend, The Gift of the Blue Moment, Why Birds Fly, The Glove, Gatherings, The Gift of Family, A Ceremony of the Ordinary, Corners, The Dark Gift, Departures, The Distant Shore, The Closing of the Day, CHAPTER 1 awakenings Morning is the dream renewed, the heart refreshed, earth's forgiveness painted in the colors of the dawn. THE GIFT OF THE DAWN Each soul must meet the morning sun, the new sweet earth, and the Great Silence alone. — Ohiyesa, Dakotah Sioux I have risen early today. Far in the distance, a faint glow paints the horizon. Dawn is coming, gently and full of prayer. I step quietly from my bed, alive to the silences around me. This is the quiet time, the time of innocence and soft thoughts, the childhood of the day. Now is the moment when I must pause and lift my heart — now, before the day fragments and my consciousness shatters into a thousand pieces. For this is the moment when the senses are most alive, when a thought, a touch, a piece of music can shape the spirit and color the day. But if I am not careful — if I rise, frantic, from my bed, full of small concerns — the mystical flow of the imagination at rest will be broken, the past and the future will rush in to claim my mind, and I will be swept up into life's petty details and myriad obligations. Gone will be the openness that comes only to the waking heart, and with it, the chance to focus the spirit and consecrate the day. All the great spiritual traditions have known this. The Christian monastics remain silent until their first chant of morning praise. Muslims begin their day with petitions of humility and thanks. The Dakotah Indians learned as children to walk in silence to a lake or stream, splash water on their faces, then offer up a prayer toward the sun. Our lives may not allow such exalted devotions. But something precious is lost if we rush headlong into the details of life without pausing for a moment to pay homage to the mystery of life and the gift of another day. It need not be much. A prayer whispered quietly, a gentle touching of a plant or flower, a momentary gaze upon a sleeping child, a second's stillness in the presence of the light. Any of these will do. What is needed is only a pausing of the heart so the spirit can take wing and be lifted toward the infinite. I walk silently toward the window. The darkness is lifting. A thin shaft of lavender has creased the horizon, setting the edges of the trees on fire with morning light. I pause and bow my head. For this brief moment, I am held in the hand of God, and I am sent forth into the morning with the poetry of possibility beating in my heart. We hear the rain, but not the snow. A day well lived must know the shape of silence. THE ELOQUENCE OF SILENCE The silence of creation speaks louder than the tongues of men or angels. — Thomas Merton The silence is profound this morning. It is not portentous; there seems to be nothing in the waiting. It is a gentle silence, liquid and pastel, a shimmer on still waters. It is good to listen to the silence that surrounds each day. In the same way that music is made alive by the silence that surrounds the notes, a day comes alive by the silence that surrounds our actions. And the dawn is the time when silence reveals herself most clearly. I once met a man who was raised on the Canadian prairies. We got to talking about the open space, and how it had shaped his spirit. "When the wind stops," he said, "it is so loud that everyone pauses to listen." The thought intrigued me. How could the end of a sound be loud? But when I traveled to those prairies, I began to understand. For the people in the great prairies, the sound they hear, the music that underlies their lives, is the constant and ever-present howl of the wind. To them it is no sound at all. When it is removed, the silence takes a different shape, and all are aware of it; all pause to hear. We need to pay heed to the many silences in our lives. An empty room is alive with a different silence than a room where someone is hiding. The silence of a happy house echoes less darkly than the silence of a house of brooding anger. The silence of a winter morning is sharper than the silence of a summer dawn. The silence of a mountain pass is larger than the silence of a forest glen. These