Malikah thought surviving was the goal — until guilt made her its prisoner. Still stuck inside the state-run mental hospital that tried to “save” her, Malikah’s fighting demons louder than the nurses, the meds, and the walls around her. Guilt is eating her alive, and every therapy session pulls her deeper into the parts of her past she swore she’d buried. Between the flashbacks, messy love, and quiet breakdowns that nobody sees, she’s realizing healing ain’t about peace — it’s about surviving the truth. In Session 2 of Soft Khaos , Malikah’s world turns even darker and more honest. The trauma, the lust, the secrets, and the guilt all come crashing together in a story that’s equal parts heartache and strength. She’s not running this time — she’s facing every lie that tried to break her. Chaos Queen, Crowned by Guilt is raw, emotional, and unfiltered — a hood survival story that hits where it hurts and heals where it matters. If you love urban drama, mental health stories, trauma recovery, self-forgiveness, messy love, and powerful Black female leads , this series will keep you turning pages and holding your breath. Because sometimes surviving the system means facing yourself first. "Session 2 felt like somebody cracked Malikah open and let the truth spill everywhere. The guilt, the rage, the padded-room quiet... it hit too close to home. Ny made me feel every ugly emotion without apologizing for any of it." "This chapter of Soft Khaos is wild in the best way. The unit drama, the secrets, the fights, the breakdowns... it felt like I was sitting in the day room watching everybody unravel. Messy, heavy, and painfully honest." "Malikah's guilt as a mother broke me. Her memories, her regrets, her son... whew. This session hits a different vein. It's raw, grown, and uncomfortable in a way that heals at the same time." "The way Ny writes trauma feels like she lived every line. Session 2 blends chaos, humor, pain, and truth so naturally it feels like real life. No sugarcoating, no filters, just a story that refuses to be quiet." "If Session 1 opened the door, Session 2 ripped that bitch off the hinges. This is hood psychology, Black motherhood, trans womanhood, and survival wrapped into one fire read. I couldn't put it down." I didn't start Soft Khaos to be quiet or brave. I started it because I was tired of pretending the mess inside me wasn't real. I've spent most of my life trying to keep everything tucked in, silent, polite, invisible. Quiet but messy. Strong and weak. Private but still wanting somebody to pay attention. I wanted better, but I was scared of who I had to become to get it. Writing this series gave me a place to breathe. I'm not writing to preach or perform. I'm writing because there are things people like us go through that never get said out loud. The thoughts we whisper. The pain we joke through. The truth we talk around. And I know I'm not the only one who feels like this, even if everybody else is scared to say it out loud. I was too, until now. My voice comes from the life I lived. The worst case thinking that protected me and stressed me out at the same time. Transitioning quietly for years and hiding my face in the club when the lights came on because I didn't want nobody seeing my shadow or my bumps. Growing into the woman who can write her truth in the open without flinching. Growth will embarrass you before it frees you, and chaos will humble you before it teaches you anything. Soft Khaos is that middle ground between who I pretend to be and who I really am. It's the normal I show the world and the chaos I hide. It's healing that looks ugly. It's identity that doesn't need permission. It's for anybody who ever felt misunderstood, judged, too loud, too quiet, too emotional, too hard, too complicated, too soft, too strong, or all of the above. If you finish these pages thinking, I didn't know she felt that, or damn that's real, or she cooked, then good. I did what I came to do. I told the truth my way. The rest lives between you and your own Soft Khaos. — Ny Dixon Soft Khaos is the part of me I used to hide. The quiet, messy, scared, loud, smart, broken, healing, petty, loving, stubborn, soft, and chaotic pieces I kept tucked away so nobody would judge me or use it against me. I spent too many years shrinking myself, pretending I was fine, playing it safe because I was scared to be seen for real. Writing this series taught me something I wish I learned sooner. Ain't nothing wrong with being complicated. Ain't nothing wrong with growing slow, feeling deep, or healing out loud. Soft Khaos is my way of showing that chaos doesn't mean weakness. Sometimes it's the only reason we survive. If you've ever felt too much, too different, too tired, or too misunderstood, this series is for you. I hope you see yourself in the pages, in the pain, in the humor, in the honesty, and in the small moments that hit hard. I hope Soft Khaos reminds you that you're allowed to feel everything and still de