When the Church Makes Me Curse!: The tension between sacred calling and institutional harm. A personal testimony of faith, rage, and resilience.

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by Darren W. Phelps

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There are books that comfort, and there are books that confront. When the Church Makes Me Curse! does both—sometimes in the same breath. This is not just a memoir. It is a reckoning. A testimony. A cry from the pulpit and the pew. Darren invites us into the tension between sacred calling and institutional harm, where faith is forged not in ease, but in fire. His story is one of rage and resilience, of grief and grace, of a love for God that refused to be extinguished—even when the church tried. In these pages, you will meet a Black, gay, ordained minister who has endured death threats, discrimination, and spiritual violence—all while preaching a gospel of radical welcome. You will hear the echoes of childhood trauma, the silence of loss, and the roar of holy defiance. And you will witness a faith that does not flinch, a truth that does not bend, and a voice that refuses to be silenced. Darren writes with the urgency of a prophet and the tenderness of a pastor. His words are raw, real, and necessary. They call the church to account—and call us all to deeper compassion. This book is not for the faint of heart. But it is for the faithful. For the wounded. For the ones who have cursed and prayed in the same breath. For those who have been told they don’t belong—and for those ready to build a church where everyone does. Read it slowly. Read it boldly. And let it change you.

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